Psycho-Peeper

WARNING:  Psycho-Peeper contains sexually explicit scenes, extreme violence, and gore (and all those things society deems unfit for public consumption)

She has chocolate moon-shredded eyes, glowing spectral orbs ripped by cinnamon filaments which crawl inward from indigo brimmed irises into black-pooled pupils. I see my reflection in them but her glance shifts past me, though I did warmly smile, to the boneheaded redneck with an IQ of sixty or less because he just parked his candy apple red BMW by the bar entrance. You can see it there in all its expensive glory. Yes I’d like to blast it into a heap of worthless scrap metal with a sledge hammer while he stares in fear. Yes I’d like to pulverize his skull into blood-pulp and urinate on the remainder of his quivering carcass. Yes I’d like to kill his entire family, all his friends, his pets, and burn his entire existence into smoldering ash—but all in due time.

And to think her obviously discordant mind failed to register my presence. I’m her neighbor but she doesn’t know it. She’s never once glanced at me until tonight and as she walked by grazing my arm, our warm flesh touching, my penis hardened as I caught a whiff of her delectable breeze: Calvin Klein’s Obsession for women. I could smell her sweet fissure. I could taste it, her sexual stench wrapping my face in pinkness.

Oh yes, I have fucked her a thousand times—in my mind—and when I say one thousand I mean precisely one thousand, for I have notated each sexual fantasy in my diary in explicit detail. And here she is, the love of my meaningless life, suckling saliva from the diseased bacterial infected mouth of one dunderhead idiot, their lips locked in passionate kiss after only five minutes of meeting him. To him she’s a one night sex-romp, to me, she’s my reason for living. Any normal person to discern the malignancy of this situation would surely take my side.

How dare she ignore me.

How dare she not notice my psychic need for her.

How dare she not feel my honest love.

I am the one who secretly peered into her bedroom window at 3 A.M. watching her disrobe. I’m the one who studied her naked body through unwashed glass every night for over a year. I have a right to be filled with explosive rage do I not? This isn’t about wanting to kill. It’s about loving her. And I do love her. We’ve been to Paris, Rome, the Virgin Islands. We’ve made love in the cramped bathroom stalls on transcontinental flights, fucking her doggie-style with her face crushed into tiny metallic sinks or grease smudged plexiglass shrouded mirrors. But only in my imagination did these sensual acts occur. I’ve reached my breaking point. My father told me as a child to take from life what you want. Those who wait or wish are left behind in a dust storm of forgotten dreams.

And I don’t even know her name.

I toss back a thirteenth triple-shot of Maker’s Mark Kentucky Straight bourbon and the dimwitted redneck goes to the bathroom to piss. I pull a plastic baggie filled with methamphetamine from my pocket and dump a thick pile on my lonely table. I drape a hundred dollar bill across it, cupping my left hand fingers around it to keep the precious shards from blasting outward as I drag a Bic lighter across it, shattering the pile into white crush. I roll the bill into a makeshift straw and madly snort over a gram of incendiary chemical into my left nostril. Three young girls glower at me in disbelief as I rabidly thunder a gaze of violence, their heads spinning away in fear. I pocket my drugs and approach her. I’m brave. Brazen. Without qualms.

“Hello.”

She glances back with a vacuous stare, “Oh hey . . . I’m not interested, my boyfriend will be back in a second.”

“I’m Tom, Tom Peep, I live next door to you.”

“I’m Stephanie. It’s nice to meet you but you’d better go. My boyfriend will beat the fuck out of you.”

Her boyfriend? He could beat the fuck out of me? Oh that putrid bitch. I want to tell her how I’ve watched her all year long. How I’ve jerked off standing outside her window as she lay in bed masturbating. How I knew she was wearing jet-black thongs and one breast had a larger nipple than the other. I am quite sure it would get her wet, wouldn’t it? My dick is throbbing in muscled rigidity almost ripping through my jeans. I can smell her vagina. Two powerful hands plop on my shoulders from behind and slam me to the floor, my skull bouncing off concrete.

“Get the fuck away from her,” the redneck grumbles as he stomps his heel onto my fingers, braiding them into crippled snag. Sure he is stronger than me, but death will come his way. They storm to the door, his hand creeping up the crack of her delicious blue-jean sheathed ass, on his way to trimville.

I follow them a safe distance behind, my skull writhing in complex waves of agony as anger surmounts in my blackened heart. And they go to her house. Perfect. I can watch to protect her as I’m certain she would want me to do. I know she’s afraid and secretly desires me. How could she not?

psycho peeper

psycho peeper

They’re in her bedroom passionately kissing and groping each other’s genitalia as I ignite my Deph82006 portable mobile cell phone GSM signal jammer to prevent any and all outgoing calls. And I don’t have to worry about a landline; I’ve thoroughly inspected the wiring on her home and know for a fact her cell is the only phone she has. She has his pants around his ankles, her wet tongue twirling around his chaffed scrotum, obviously too drunk to discern her own stupid actions. But no worries. I am here now and wearing my psycho tool belt complete with hammer, pliers, superglue, blowtorch and several other readily accessible implements.

I hear maddening howls of pleasure bellow through brick as I watch him wildly fuck her. That piece of human shit, defiling the woman of my dreams without my permission. How dare he disrespect me. I cock my arm and slam a slab of granite through her bedroom window. They leap from vile sex, their eyes popping from bewildered sockets. He is afraid to peer outside, instead attempting to call the police, but his phone doesn’t work. He frenetically paces in circles, his ignoramus mind unable to process the ordeal. She tries her phone but her frail hands shiver so violently she cannot steady her fingers enough to peck the keypad. He gyrates in twisted conniption while she screams, “Are you just gonna stand there or do something?”

And yes, the poor fool to prove his masculinity worthwhile finally decides to go see who is outside, still naked and holding a baseball bat. He leaps from around the corner; his eyes meet mine and trace down to me zipping up my jeans. An arctic chill blisters his spine as he comprehends my presence and I am shocked his brain actually works.

“What the fuck are you doing out here?” he growls.

“Jerking off.”

His in-need-of-trimming eye brows burrow into his Cro-Magnon skull, “What?”

“What’s her name?” I ask, “You don’t even know her name do you?”

He clutches the bat and winds it upward behind him like a baseball player, lunges clumsily towards me thinking he had the upper hand earlier in the bar. Little does he know, I simply allowed him to slam me to the floor, to deceive him into a false sense of confidence. As he swings the bat inaccurately towards my cranium with his fearful eyes pinched closed, I don’t step away as expected; instead, I step forward into the vicious blow, close enough to hug him and out of range of the twirling bat, stabbing the zygomatic region of his skull to the outside of his right eye with the cap of a steel hammer. Bone shatters in a sickening crunch but he is not beaten unconscious as my blow is swift and deep, not debilitating. Before he can blink I slice his dick from tip to base, re-sheath my blade and stand there calm as if bored . . . yawning. He drops his bat but before charging me looks down and his dick is peeled like a scarlet banana, chunks of coagulating blood pasting his thighs. Two razor cleaved cock flaps hang above his testicles, loose veins dangle spurting blood and thickened juices. His face scrunched in wrinkled terror as I whip my erect penis out staring at a horrified Stephanie staring out the window.

“I’ll be there in a second honey,” I blast as he freaks out in a psychotic frenzy.

I ferociously stomp my calcified knuckles into his solar plexus; he vomits a stream of pre-digested veal Parmesan across my face. Instead of allowing him the pleasure of causing me discomfort, I scoop a stringy glob of puke strewn atop my collar bone divot and eat it; amazingly, it’s still warm and quite tasty. He twitches in delirium, confused, fearful, and fingers his crackled cheek attempting to self-comprehend why he is afraid of me. I quick draw my heavy-duty pliers and power-snatch the thick ridge of cartilage atop his nose. I squeeze hard enough to hear crunching—like children eating tacos—and drag the limping punk into her home and into her bedroom where she shivers in a pool of cold sweat. Two running video cameras on tripods sit in two corners of the room to catch all the action.

“Don’t be afraid of this guy Stephanie,” I say to comfort her and instill confidence in me, “I’ll protect you.”

While clenching pliers around his nose with my left hand, I slam my bony knuckles precisely in his fractured cheek, pounding his skull over and over and over until my arm cramps from totalitarian exhaustion. He collapses to his knees but I hold him upright by his nose, continuing to blister his face into bloody burger, the morbid tones of snapping bone bursting through the house. He slips onto the carpet lying flat on his back and the interlocking teeth of piers pop together, shearing his nose completely off. I suck the morbid gristle from my tool to clean its jaws and begin gnawing meat from his throat, snatching his sterno-cleido-mastoideus muscle, shearing it from the mastoid process beneath his ear. I meticulously place the piers around one of his molars—he’s too withered to fight back—and squeeze the handles with all my might . . . sckrunchhkapopp! I giggle and rip my clothes off exposing my majestic body as I’m certain Stephanie is ready for sweltering hot sex.

“What do you want from me lady?” asks Stephanie.

“I’m not a lady, my name is Tom.”

“You have tits! You’re wearing a strap-on dildo!”

“Oh no Stephanie sugar, I am all man, a pseudo-hermaphroditic man,” I reply beaming in heartfelt joy.”

I slice the unconscious red-neck’s belly open—crimson lipped gouge to his innards—and pull his intestines out, licking the mucous glazed organ and smearing rancid ichor across my beautiful face. I peel his scrotum like a rotted tangerine and eat his cold unsalted testicles as keeping them cool is the natural function of the scrotum pouch. I approach her, my hand sliding feverishly up and down my neoprene penis.

“Make love to me Stephanie,” I say wrapping his apparently still working intestines around my body draped across my erect nipples as I feel a lump of digested food slither beneath the pinkish membrane. She fidgets and squirms her naked body, lying on her back with legs spread, into the corner. There’s no place to run. No more places to squirm. She stomps at me and spits in my face but I wrestle her under submission and pin her legs aside. She vomits, glistening egg splattering from her nostrils, foamy drool frothing from her delectable lips as I slide my fourteen inch cock in her asshole, our bodies entangled in his purplish-warm intestines, ravaging her tender pink anus whilst repugnant excrement glissades from the raped orifice. I pull out and grind it deep in her vagina. She yelps like a helpless little girl and smiles.

“Oh Tommy honey, this is the best one yet . . . I love you sugar-dumpling. Fuck the shit out of me.”

“I love you too Stephanie.”

We peel the still breathing red-neck’s bowels open with a claw hammer, exfoliating his sweetbreads, and I chop his breastbone dead center with an ax. Stephanie pries his ribs apart with a hooked rusty crowbar as a fetid plume of fragrant steam is released. We plop inside his blood drenched body-pocket worming our naked bodies betwixt his inner soup, bathing inside him. We slide across each other, licking and sucking each other’s sexual organs, making rabid love as god intended up to do. After spine buckling, toe wrenching orgasms, we lie in his cold crevasse as I drink her pristine kisses. Stephanie grins and says, “At least men are good for something.”

This is one of 23 short stories I wrote during my blogging break. I actually wrote this on July 6th, 2009 after a vicious argument about politics with a bisexual feminazi. This woman was extraordinarily beautiful. She shot me down in flame though my attempt was without flaw. Unfortunately, I failed in my quest but managed to release my tension in an extremely vile short story; which is why I wrote it. There’s a motive behind everything.

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The Disease of Hollywood Narcissism

I admit I’m so much happier now that I don’t really watch TV, keep up with the endless minutiae of every irrelevant incident occurring throughout every second of every day. Having said that, one of the most interesting phenomenons in modern society is the way people—especially Americans—transfer or transpose their own egos into the mirrored reality of famous stars, actors, politicians, sports stars, reality TV and a multitudinous cacophony of completely inconsequential blather and bullshit.

Hollywood Spawned Narcissistic Ego Disorder

People like stars because they see themselves in them. They feel part of them. Women swoon over famous men and men fantasize about sexy famous women. We want to to have sex with these people. We want to hang out with these people. We worry about them. We cry when they cry. We cry when they die. We scathingly critique them when they make us mad. We jerk off when they do a Playboy spread. Not only do we worship, look up to, grovel for, dream of and much more—we want to be them. Hollywood has become the mirrored ego in a majority of people’s lives.

And that is not only sad, it is sick. It’s a sociological disease driven by mass media entertainment. These are powerful, wide sweeping sociological phenomena that absorb people without them even knowing it. It is a self-generating entity unto itself.

People in American society are far too concerned with famous people, stars, musicians, awards, who died, etc. It is actually a sociological mass brain disorder

Dr. Drew Pinsky has a theory (the mirror effect) that most stars are predisposed to narcissistic personality disorder long before they become famous and that a majority of people in society use this as a mirror thus psychologically distorting and damaging their own minds using stars as “twisted mentors”. I’d go even further to say the entire landscape of the Internet, Twitter, Facebook, MySpace, blogging, etc. has changed the way people interact as a whole. Because of the way our lives and egos are mirrored by Hollywood narcissism, we are growing into a less intelligent, excessively greedy, superficial horde of human beings.

Your destroyed identity

Your destroyed identity

When human beings begin to actually care what happens to a character on a TV show and then obsess over the actor paying the character, it is so bizarre I cannot help but look at them like science experiments gone awry.

The entire idea of friendship has become a shallow meaningless relationship whereby elimination of those we disagree with is but a click away—and this disturbing phenomenon overflows into our actual lives. Let me rephrase that: it doesn’t overflow, it is a tsunami of sickness.

All these concepts coincide with the modern plague and version of depression and drug addiction. The truth is, when we allow all this garbage (over-obsession with Hollywood, what other people do or say, etc)  into our lives we lose “presence” in our own lives.

When it comes to judging celebrities and their behavior, it might be best to take a good look in the mirror

I know a young woman who didn’t go to her own mother’s funeral, but did travel 1500 miles to mourn over Michael Jackson’s death (and actually cried for three days over it). But the fact remains, she never actually knew nor was friends with Jackson in real life. That is scary my friends. What famous people do or say generally has no relevancy in yours, mine, or anyone’s lives. There’s nothing wrong with watching TV, listening to music, having a “star crush”, but when it becomes an obsession it becomes a serious medical disorder.

We need to choke down that Valium to sleep. We need that Prozac to cope. We need to take sides in political issues. We need to worry about why we aren’t more beautiful, skinnier, sexier, younger. Advertisers masterfully manipulate the public making women believe they need to be someone else to be wanted, loved or desired. Men are sold and actually buy billions of tablets of ExtenZe so their dicks will be longer and harder.

WHY?

Because there is something wrong with you and they want to sell you the cure. The most unbelievable aspect of all? You demand it. You demand to be sick. Keep obsessing on all those things in life that truly don’t matter and transferring your own ego into the matrix of meaningless bullshit—you’ll remain exactly where they want you to be.

Be yourself. Love yourself. Let go of all that which truly doesn’t matter and be filled with love and happiness. And most importantly, BE PRESENT in your own life and forget about what stars do. Learn the difference between loving yourself and narcissism.

Dramaturgical Perspective

What I’m really getting at is an actual sociological paradigm called dramaturgical perspective. This can be an effective way to explain a  sociological disorder (affects an entire group of individuals, not just one person). Dramaurgical perspective theorizes that because of modern communication, we are no longer individuals or who we believe we are. Our identity is built on consensus (relationships between ourselves, others, societal groups, and how these elements blend as a whole). We aren’t really ourselves, we are in a sense playing ourselves or the created image of who we want to be like an actor. Social interaction has become dependent on this “consensus”.

People are living more and more aspects of their lives as a slave to socially molded conveyance or performance. It has become commonplace for people to become a caricature of themselves and live as a performing artist, based not on who they actually are, but on who society says they are. Some  are aware of this and use it to manipulate others, but are still a sociologically produced psychological product . . . kinda like a living breathing human McDonald’s cheeseburger.

The symbiotic relationship of mirrored realities (Hollywood to masses and masses to Hollywood) are reflections of each other. Human beings become more fake than the fake actors they worship. And it all designs and builds a bizarre mass-sociologically separatist reality.

  • We are born blank slates.
  • We get a corrupted politically correct mass media influenced education.
  • We then become less individualistic.
  • We grow up and separate even further.
  • We divide among religion, race, politics, class and every other type of separatist identification.
  • We allow mass media entertainment and the 24 hour news cycle to turn us into superficial slaves.

I could go on an on about this stuff, but I’ll just say: take a step back from this sociological matrix and take a long look in the mirror. Are you really who you believe you are? Are you nothing more than a highly manipulated representation of a displayed performance you reveal to the world?

I didn’t watch the MTV music awards yesterday. but I did watch in sheer astonishment as the Kanye West sociological manipulation exploded across the web, Facebook and Twitter. The very idea that some guy on TV manipulated how you felt at the time and prompted you to voice your concern over this irrelevant triviality is incredible. The mass public was played like a violin. Ask yourself why and look in the mirror when you do it.

You might just have narcissistic personality disorder.

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Interviewing Jeremy C. Shipp

I’m honored to present Jeremy C. Shipp, a writer that had an immediate impact on my own view and perception of writing. I just read his book Sheep and Wolves, and was . . . OK, I don’t know what I was, but I thoroughly enjoyed it. I can’t give a coherent review of it, but I will say it was bizarre, horrific, weird, thoughtful and extraordinary. It defies explanation, is devoid of all cliché, and shimmers of originality. His following answers are extremely useful to writers and readers of any genre.
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Busting Bizarro Cherry

This is my first experimentation with the bizarro genre. I had to bust my bizarro cherry. After writing it, I stared at it for an hour wondering.
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Political Positivity

Here’s a little political positivity for today. With all the vitriolic hatred between the right and left in American politics, I’m so thankful I am not affiliated with either the republican or democratic party. It’s really asinine to call yourself liberal, conservative, libertarian, progressive or whatever. I’m basically an anarchist who believes in rugged individualism and opposes government, but having said that, I have something positive to say.
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Writing Fiction: Using Literary Theory

The use of literary theory in writing fiction is an often overlooked or completely disregarded aspect of writing in today’s world of “packaged artist” writers—often wrapped up and sold like McDonald’s cheeseburgers to kids inundated with commercialization and pop-culture. Is this good or bad? Does it really even matter?
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My Upcoming Transgressional Fiction Novel

I can’t really divulge too much detail about my upcoming transgressional fiction novel, but since I barely have time to actually blog right now and I’m spending nearly all my free time writing it, I thought it a good time to at least tell you a little about it—the thing keeping me strapped to my office chair, my bloodshot eyes transfixed to my Open Office word processor on my Linux desktop (nothing Microsoft here).
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The Monet Defiled

Alessandra Francesca D’Olivera plugs her left nostril with outstretched pinky embellished with sharply honed viridian nail and blows a fluttering whip of blood-yolk which twirls like injured dragonfly sticking to a gold-brimmed replica of Claude Monet’s gorgeous 1915 painting Nympheas as the maddened crush of spectators stand in disgusted awe of her dead-eye-dick incisiveness; the tavern interior splattered in gambooge-yellow while the jagged-toothed Antonio Jacopo Terranova sits quietly in a darkened nook, his face shaded wicked by the twisted flicker of curled candle flame, shadows trickling along deeply engraved facial fissures and wax-crimped mustache edging thinly pleated upper lip.
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