Revellian.com is now 3 months old! I had some very bad experiences last week and I seriously considered quitting blogging altogether. Many people may not understand why I wanted to, but it was a very bad week. About four days ago I went to just look at my blog and it wouldn’t come up. I checked with my host and they were baffled that even they couldn’t log in! I then tried to restore my backups and sadly they were all damaged and filled with garbled text. It was then I felt horrible that I had considered quitting. I faced the possibility that even if I changed my mind, my blog was gone.

My blog has been restored and my databases have been rebuilt! I learned how to use phpmyadmin in two days for those of you who know what it is. Now, with my blog back online I feel so relieved. I believe this happened for a reason. Is it possible that this was divine intervention? It feels that way to me. I will never consider quitting again. No matter how bad things are, it’s nice to know I have people to talk to from everywhere on earth. I don’t have many people to talk to in my everyday life and my blogging friends have taken on a new importance. I wish I had lots of great friends in my real life but I unfortunately have severed many ties throughout the years. Most of my friends are dead or in prison. My best friend in highschool was excecuted by the state of Alabama for killing two police officers in cold blood. We all have different backgrounds and mine is filled with lots of bad memories. I am fortunate to be alive and not in prison considering how many friends I had to leave to stay that way. I am starting a new life for myself. My hope and dream is that I find my soulmate, I deserve someone special. After changing so many aspects of my life, I find myself alone. All the history, all the poor choices and bad friendships have led to this point. I want my blogging friends to know that they have truly helped save me. If it weren’t for all of you, I may have given up.

I find myself not so alone, with so many of you giving me words of encouragement. There is no worse feeling to me than loneliness. Many of you don’t really know what it’s like to be truly alone. Consider yourself extremely lucky because it is like going to a parent’s funeral everyday. It has just about killed me. So I say that blogging has helped me so much, I could never say in words just how much. I am sick and tired of reflecting on all the bad and I want the present to be what I live for. I love you all and will be here for all of you. Blogging is a beautiful thing and I now know how important it has been in helping me change my life.

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