Memories of Sweet Sadness

In 2001, I had a job managing a health food/vitamin store which I absolutely loved. There were lots of available women around every corner as it was in a very popular outlet mall. One day, this incredibly charismatic and attractive woman came in. We were both smiling and couldn’t stop looking at each other - my heart was pounding and I became this giggling little kid unable to hide his nervousness.

We talked for around twenty minutes and finally, she said she had to go because she was shopping with her mother and had to meet back up with her. She walked out and I thought, “No…how does this happen to me?”

I wished she would come back and I waited, pacing the floor; staring out the front window…hoping. Finally, I decided to give up and started to straighten up some shelves. Suddenly, she walked back in with her mother; catching me off guard. The three of us had a fantastic conversation - intense but fun questions and answers flying about - it was absolute fun!

Her mother, almost on cue, said goodbye and left her daughter to chat with me a little longer. What a great mom she had! I knew I had to take action right then. I told her, “When you left earlier, I was devastated…even though I just met you. Right now, my heart is beating so fast, I can barely talk…”

Her face became flushed in crimson - I knew mine was too but I somehow asked her, “Would you…”

She cut me off, blurting out, “YES! I will go out with you…hahaha!”

We both exploded in laughter…tears welled up in her eyes and I walked over and asked her if I could hug her before she left - she threw her arms around me and I held her for what seemed like hours. Her mother popped up, gawking through the window at us…leaving us both red faced and intoxicated with infatuation.

We dated for a brief period of time after that. Really, it was quite wonderful and I will never forget her. I was calling her endlessly for weeks but noticed that she never called me. I wondered what would happen if I stopped calling her. Would she call me? Would she forget about me? It was something I really needed to know. I didn’t want to ask her because I felt like actions speak much louder than words.

One day, I stopped calling her. Several days went by and I incessantly thought for sure she would call me back. That was seven years ago…I never heard from her again. What she never knew, was that I fell in love with her the day I met her. It’s a beautifully somber memory to have - though I did get over it - I often wonder what became of her.

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Tags: broken heart, depression, sadness

March 7, 2008 · Filed Under life personal

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21 Responses to “Memories of Sweet Sadness”

paisley on March 7th, 2008 9:21 am

what a tender story.. we always remember that feeling tho… recapturing it is difficult… i totally love a chemical reaction tho… totally….

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Paula on March 7th, 2008 11:49 am

Beautiful story Bobby. I’ve got tears in my eyes. You are a special guy. I often make quick connections like that with people too, I’m not sure why and since I really, really care about everyone who comes in to my life, I wonder about them and hope they are OK. I had the opportunity recently to talk for a couple hours with one of my very first boyfriends. We dated when I was 18 and he was 17, and it was so wonderful to find out about his life and to talk about the old days. The funny thing with me is, if I love you (as a friend too!), I love you for life.

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teeni on March 7th, 2008 12:16 pm

Maybe you should have just talked to her about it. Or asked her to call you. She may have spent the last seven years wondering why you just stopped calling. She might have not called you because of old traditional values where a girl isn’t supposed to call a guy. Who knows? Now we never will. I’m glad you got over it though. But now I’m not.
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Bush Mackel on March 7th, 2008 12:54 pm

Bobby - I swear no one knows how to tell a better story than you! (#):) I think all of us have at one point or another lost “that” girl. It’s sometimes tough to get through but after you do, if you can still remember those feelings, they’re a great part of life. (#):D

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Revellian on March 7th, 2008 1:50 pm

Thank you Paisley. I don’t know why I felt the compulsion to write this, but it felt good to release it
Revellian on March 7th, 2008 2:40 pm

Hi Paula! Thanks so much for your kind words. Though I am not yet married, I have loved…haha! I’m like that too in many respects. I cannot just “turn off” love or bury it in some graveyard…so it will always remain. Life is full of surprises isn’t it?
Revellian on March 7th, 2008 2:42 pm

Hi Teeni! Well…there is more to the story than I revealed. I do know what happened to her and why she never called; however, I didn’t want to get that personal. Perhaps I’ll tell you what happened one day
Revellian on March 7th, 2008 2:46 pm

Thanks Bush! I am just an amateur story teller at best, but I really do love to write. Haha…I’ve met many “it girls” but not “the one” yet
teeni on March 7th, 2008 5:48 pm

Ahhhh. Holding back on us, huh? LOL. I should have known there was more to it.
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EuroYank on March 7th, 2008 10:06 pm

Bob so the big question is … Why do you think she never called you back?

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Revellian on March 7th, 2008 11:07 pm

Yes indeed Teeni…haha
Revellian on March 7th, 2008 11:08 pm

I may write about it in a future article. However, it’s so elaborate and insane…no one would actually believe it!
Genie Princess on March 8th, 2008 9:25 am

What a great story, too bad it ended just like that, don’t you need your closure Bobby?
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Revellian on March 8th, 2008 10:04 am

Marzie…I wish I had closure, but I do not. As they say…life goes on
nimrodjo on March 8th, 2008 10:54 am

A very sweet and lovely story…
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Revellian on March 9th, 2008 1:10 am

Thanks so much…I’m glad you enjoyed it
Eric "Speedcat Hollydale" on March 9th, 2008 4:40 pm

I really liked this story. It is proof that all men, no matter how strong, have a fragile core - one that is exposed to the wrath of love…. that stongest of emotions that make us human. Amazing that love can effect us with such power, either good or bad.
Your story reminds me of very similar events and loves in my own past. Even after years go by, the memory and feeling of love’s consequenses on ourselves remains intact. I remember a breakup of my own like yesterday, yet the following week is a blur.

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Revellian on March 9th, 2008 5:20 pm

So true Eric! We men think we are all tough until a woman shatters our paper thin mask of masculinity…hahaha! Some guys go out and shoot people while others (like me) cry like a bawling infant
dcr on March 10th, 2008 1:23 pm

With statements like that, now you just have to tell us. No fair teasing us and keeping it a secret.
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emila yusof on March 15th, 2008 11:41 pm

Sweet but sad story. I wish you had a closure, at least a goodbye from her. The picture perfectly describes her heart, if I were you, I’ll never get over it. I’ll hunt her for closure.

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Barbara Ling (aka Owlbert) on March 17th, 2008 1:09 pm

What a very poignant story. It’s a pity that sometimes people do not treat the honest gift of love/affection/etc. with the importance it deserves. Kudos to you for being able to move on and heal.

Best wishes,

Barbara

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