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Psycho-Peeper

WARNING:  Psycho-Peeper contains sexually explicit scenes, extreme violence, and gore (and all those things society deems unfit for public consumption)

She has chocolate moon-shredded eyes, glowing spectral orbs ripped by cinnamon filaments which crawl inward from indigo brimmed irises into black-pooled pupils. I see my reflection in them but her glance shifts past me, though I did warmly smile, to the boneheaded redneck with an IQ of sixty or less because he just parked his candy apple red BMW by the bar entrance. You can see it there in all its expensive glory. Yes I’d like to blast it into a heap of worthless scrap metal with a sledge hammer while he stares in fear. Yes I’d like to pulverize his skull into blood-pulp and urinate on the remainder of his quivering carcass. Yes I’d like to kill his entire family, all his friends, his pets, and burn his entire existence into smoldering ash—but all in due time.

And to think her obviously discordant mind failed to register my presence. I’m her neighbor but she doesn’t know it. She’s never once glanced at me until tonight and as she walked by grazing my arm, our warm flesh touching, my penis hardened as I caught a whiff of her delectable breeze: Calvin Klein’s Obsession for women. I could smell her sweet fissure. I could taste it, her sexual stench wrapping my face in pinkness.

Oh yes, I have fucked her a thousand times—in my mind—and when I say one thousand I mean precisely one thousand, for I have notated each sexual fantasy in my diary in explicit detail. And here she is, the love of my meaningless life, suckling saliva from the diseased bacterial infected mouth of one dunderhead idiot, their lips locked in passionate kiss after only five minutes of meeting him. To him she’s a one night sex-romp, to me, she’s my reason for living. Any normal person to discern the malignancy of this situation would surely take my side.

How dare she ignore me.

How dare she not notice my psychic need for her.

How dare she not feel my honest love.

I am the one who secretly peered into her bedroom window at 3 A.M. watching her disrobe. I’m the one who studied her naked body through unwashed glass every night for over a year. I have a right to be filled with explosive rage do I not? This isn’t about wanting to kill. It’s about loving her. And I do love her. We’ve been to Paris, Rome, the Virgin Islands. We’ve made love in the cramped bathroom stalls on transcontinental flights, fucking her doggie-style with her face crushed into tiny metallic sinks or grease smudged plexiglass shrouded mirrors. But only in my imagination did these sensual acts occur. I’ve reached my breaking point. My father told me as a child to take from life what you want. Those who wait or wish are left behind in a dust storm of forgotten dreams.

And I don’t even know her name.

I toss back a thirteenth triple-shot of Maker’s Mark Kentucky Straight bourbon and the dimwitted redneck goes to the bathroom to piss. I pull a plastic baggie filled with methamphetamine from my pocket and dump a thick pile on my lonely table. I drape a hundred dollar bill across it, cupping my left hand fingers around it to keep the precious shards from blasting outward as I drag a Bic lighter across it, shattering the pile into white crush. I roll the bill into a makeshift straw and madly snort over a gram of incendiary chemical into my left nostril. Three young girls glower at me in disbelief as I rabidly thunder a gaze of violence, their heads spinning away in fear. I pocket my drugs and approach her. I’m brave. Brazen. Without qualms.

“Hello.”

She glances back with a vacuous stare, “Oh hey . . . I’m not interested, my boyfriend will be back in a second.”

“I’m Tom, Tom Peep, I live next door to you.”

“I’m Stephanie. It’s nice to meet you but you’d better go. My boyfriend will beat the fuck out of you.”

Her boyfriend? He could beat the fuck out of me? Oh that putrid bitch. I want to tell her how I’ve watched her all year long. How I’ve jerked off standing outside her window as she lay in bed masturbating. How I knew she was wearing jet-black thongs and one breast had a larger nipple than the other. I am quite sure it would get her wet, wouldn’t it? My dick is throbbing in muscled rigidity almost ripping through my jeans. I can smell her vagina. Two powerful hands plop on my shoulders from behind and slam me to the floor, my skull bouncing off concrete.

“Get the fuck away from her,” the redneck grumbles as he stomps his heel onto my fingers, braiding them into crippled snag. Sure he is stronger than me, but death will come his way. They storm to the door, his hand creeping up the crack of her delicious blue-jean sheathed ass, on his way to trimville.

I follow them a safe distance behind, my skull writhing in complex waves of agony as anger surmounts in my blackened heart. And they go to her house. Perfect. I can watch to protect her as I’m certain she would want me to do. I know she’s afraid and secretly desires me. How could she not?

psycho peeper

psycho peeper

They’re in her bedroom passionately kissing and groping each other’s genitalia as I ignite my Deph82006 portable mobile cell phone GSM signal jammer to prevent any and all outgoing calls. And I don’t have to worry about a landline; I’ve thoroughly inspected the wiring on her home and know for a fact her cell is the only phone she has. She has his pants around his ankles, her wet tongue twirling around his chaffed scrotum, obviously too drunk to discern her own stupid actions. But no worries. I am here now and wearing my psycho tool belt complete with hammer, pliers, superglue, blowtorch and several other readily accessible implements.

I hear maddening howls of pleasure bellow through brick as I watch him wildly fuck her. That piece of human shit, defiling the woman of my dreams without my permission. How dare he disrespect me. I cock my arm and slam a slab of granite through her bedroom window. They leap from vile sex, their eyes popping from bewildered sockets. He is afraid to peer outside, instead attempting to call the police, but his phone doesn’t work. He frenetically paces in circles, his ignoramus mind unable to process the ordeal. She tries her phone but her frail hands shiver so violently she cannot steady her fingers enough to peck the keypad. He gyrates in twisted conniption while she screams, “Are you just gonna stand there or do something?”

And yes, the poor fool to prove his masculinity worthwhile finally decides to go see who is outside, still naked and holding a baseball bat. He leaps from around the corner; his eyes meet mine and trace down to me zipping up my jeans. An arctic chill blisters his spine as he comprehends my presence and I am shocked his brain actually works.

“What the fuck are you doing out here?” he growls.

“Jerking off.”

His in-need-of-trimming eye brows burrow into his Cro-Magnon skull, “What?”

“What’s her name?” I ask, “You don’t even know her name do you?”

He clutches the bat and winds it upward behind him like a baseball player, lunges clumsily towards me thinking he had the upper hand earlier in the bar. Little does he know, I simply allowed him to slam me to the floor, to deceive him into a false sense of confidence. As he swings the bat inaccurately towards my cranium with his fearful eyes pinched closed, I don’t step away as expected; instead, I step forward into the vicious blow, close enough to hug him and out of range of the twirling bat, stabbing the zygomatic region of his skull to the outside of his right eye with the cap of a steel hammer. Bone shatters in a sickening crunch but he is not beaten unconscious as my blow is swift and deep, not debilitating. Before he can blink I slice his dick from tip to base, re-sheath my blade and stand there calm as if bored . . . yawning. He drops his bat but before charging me looks down and his dick is peeled like a scarlet banana, chunks of coagulating blood pasting his thighs. Two razor cleaved cock flaps hang above his testicles, loose veins dangle spurting blood and thickened juices. His face scrunched in wrinkled terror as I whip my erect penis out staring at a horrified Stephanie staring out the window.

“I’ll be there in a second honey,” I blast as he freaks out in a psychotic frenzy.

I ferociously stomp my calcified knuckles into his solar plexus; he vomits a stream of pre-digested veal Parmesan across my face. Instead of allowing him the pleasure of causing me discomfort, I scoop a stringy glob of puke strewn atop my collar bone divot and eat it; amazingly, it’s still warm and quite tasty. He twitches in delirium, confused, fearful, and fingers his crackled cheek attempting to self-comprehend why he is afraid of me. I quick draw my heavy-duty pliers and power-snatch the thick ridge of cartilage atop his nose. I squeeze hard enough to hear crunching—like children eating tacos—and drag the limping punk into her home and into her bedroom where she shivers in a pool of cold sweat. Two running video cameras on tripods sit in two corners of the room to catch all the action.

“Don’t be afraid of this guy Stephanie,” I say to comfort her and instill confidence in me, “I’ll protect you.”

While clenching pliers around his nose with my left hand, I slam my bony knuckles precisely in his fractured cheek, pounding his skull over and over and over until my arm cramps from totalitarian exhaustion. He collapses to his knees but I hold him upright by his nose, continuing to blister his face into bloody burger, the morbid tones of snapping bone bursting through the house. He slips onto the carpet lying flat on his back and the interlocking teeth of piers pop together, shearing his nose completely off. I suck the morbid gristle from my tool to clean its jaws and begin gnawing meat from his throat, snatching his sterno-cleido-mastoideus muscle, shearing it from the mastoid process beneath his ear. I meticulously place the piers around one of his molars—he’s too withered to fight back—and squeeze the handles with all my might . . . sckrunchhkapopp! I giggle and rip my clothes off exposing my majestic body as I’m certain Stephanie is ready for sweltering hot sex.

“What do you want from me lady?” asks Stephanie.

“I’m not a lady, my name is Tom.”

“You have tits! You’re wearing a strap-on dildo!”

“Oh no Stephanie sugar, I am all man, a pseudo-hermaphroditic man,” I reply beaming in heartfelt joy.”

I slice the unconscious red-neck’s belly open—crimson lipped gouge to his innards—and pull his intestines out, licking the mucous glazed organ and smearing rancid ichor across my beautiful face. I peel his scrotum like a rotted tangerine and eat his cold unsalted testicles as keeping them cool is the natural function of the scrotum pouch. I approach her, my hand sliding feverishly up and down my neoprene penis.

“Make love to me Stephanie,” I say wrapping his apparently still working intestines around my body draped across my erect nipples as I feel a lump of digested food slither beneath the pinkish membrane. She fidgets and squirms her naked body, lying on her back with legs spread, into the corner. There’s no place to run. No more places to squirm. She stomps at me and spits in my face but I wrestle her under submission and pin her legs aside. She vomits, glistening egg splattering from her nostrils, foamy drool frothing from her delectable lips as I slide my fourteen inch cock in her asshole, our bodies entangled in his purplish-warm intestines, ravaging her tender pink anus whilst repugnant excrement glissades from the raped orifice. I pull out and grind it deep in her vagina. She yelps like a helpless little girl and smiles.

“Oh Tommy honey, this is the best one yet . . . I love you sugar-dumpling. Fuck the shit out of me.”

“I love you too Stephanie.”

We peel the still breathing red-neck’s bowels open with a claw hammer, exfoliating his sweetbreads, and I chop his breastbone dead center with an ax. Stephanie pries his ribs apart with a hooked rusty crowbar as a fetid plume of fragrant steam is released. We plop inside his blood drenched body-pocket worming our naked bodies betwixt his inner soup, bathing inside him. We slide across each other, licking and sucking each other’s sexual organs, making rabid love as god intended up to do. After spine buckling, toe wrenching orgasms, we lie in his cold crevasse as I drink her pristine kisses. Stephanie grins and says, “At least men are good for something.”

This is one of 23 short stories I wrote during my blogging break. I actually wrote this on July 6th, 2009 after a vicious argument about politics with a bisexual feminazi. This woman was extraordinarily beautiful. She shot me down in flame though my attempt was without flaw. Unfortunately, I failed in my quest but managed to release my tension in an extremely vile short story; which is why I wrote it. There’s a motive behind everything.

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My Upcoming Transgressional Fiction Novel

I can’t really divulge too much detail about my upcoming transgressional fiction novel, but since I barely have time to actually blog right now and I’m spending nearly all my free time writing it, I thought it a good time to at least tell you a little about it—the thing keeping me strapped to my office chair, my bloodshot eyes transfixed to my Open Office word processor on my Linux desktop (nothing Microsoft here).
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The Monet Defiled

Alessandra Francesca D’Olivera plugs her left nostril with outstretched pinky embellished with sharply honed viridian nail and blows a fluttering whip of blood-yolk which twirls like injured dragonfly sticking to a gold-brimmed replica of Claude Monet’s gorgeous 1915 painting Nympheas as the maddened crush of spectators stand in disgusted awe of her dead-eye-dick incisiveness; the tavern interior splattered in gambooge-yellow while the jagged-toothed Antonio Jacopo Terranova sits quietly in a darkened nook, his face shaded wicked by the twisted flicker of curled candle flame, shadows trickling along deeply engraved facial fissures and wax-crimped mustache edging thinly pleated upper lip.
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The Ugly Bitch

Vanilla smoked lies sweetly burn behind Mia’s gaze as she air-brushes her flawless face with her Dinair Media Spa kit purchased from Nieman Marcus, which she bought on sale for only $1450.00. She mists perfume across her neckline and says, “Mildred, will you clasp my necklace? And don’t worry, I’m almost finished getting ready.”

“Yeah sure,” she says while gazing at Mia’s perfection in the mirror, “but I don’t know why you have to get all fixed up, we’re not going out.”

“Well, I may go out. I know this is our night, but I may have a date with Bradford Merrick, the financial titan Bradford Merrick. I know you don’t understand, but I have an image to uphold. I’ve been studying the Anthony Robbins  Ultimate Edge CD series and success should be reflected in one’s appearance. Everything I do, say, every action I take has purpose, and without purpose we are losers. I’ve changed my life for the better: the guys I date are successful, my friends are successful, and I loathe to associate with anyone not on my frequency: the frequency of abundance.”

Mildred feels ugly. Ugly inside and out. Her neck-less skull sits imploded betwixt thick shoulders, a lead anvil hammered into spine, splattering a slight hump across her upper back. A miscreant goth she is, though smart and philosophical. She clasps the necklace and says, “Don’t you think you’re taking this image thing too far? For god’s sake, everyone knows you’re beautiful. You have doctors, lawyers, professors crawling at your feet. I mean Bradford Merrick bought you a corvette and barely knows you, how does that happen? You know the rest of the world doesn’t experience that stuff. And I doubt your interpretation of Anthony Robbins is right.”
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Afterbirth – Tale of Terror

Today I feel lethal, a scoch unstable, my thoughts chafed into pulverulence, wildness behind these eyes. Don’t look at me. Don’t talk to me. Cold bruised memories trickling inlets; raven shadows in the corner of my stare. I turn to look and it is gone. Something is coming. Something wants to be with me. To teach me things.

Crisped flesh wrapped tight my sun-raped skull, varnished in hot nasty sweat butter—pore sparged glaze but no protection from unceasing solar broil. My hunger unendurable yet the flavor of my own seared skin persuaded salival secretions, my stomach snarling for meat. Mere filaments of memory stretched and popped, shitting storms of misery across the windshield of my mind. Hordes of stone-black vultures circled above crying symphonies of sacrificial shrill. Praying for my death. Begging for pain. Dying for administration.

I’m standing at the counter in McDonalds first in line with eight people behind me; two elderly couples wreaking of cancer, a cop and three girls in their early twenties. A young black kid with work cap twisted gangster style atop his Wesley Snipes haircut ala New Jack City says, “Yo . . . I’m Reginald, may I take your order?”

I’m near eruption, an explosion of violence but I don’t know why. I turn nonchalantly to see the cop; where his attention is focused—and his gun, a 17 round Glock 9mm. He was uneasy; in a hurry probably wanting to sit down and stuff his mammoth gut with quarter-pounders, apple pies and chocolate shakes. I imagined his heart constricting in knotted twitch, falling to the floor dead as pork chop.

The cop says, “Please hurry up mister, some of us have jobs.”

“Alright G-Money, I’ll have nine quarter-pounders. On the first one, I want you to divide the top bun in half, mayonnaise on one side and ketchup on the other. On the bottom bun I want half a tomato sliver on one side and minced onions on the other. Dead center of the bottom bun I’d like one pickle slice—a big one. Now—and this is the most important part—make sure when assembling this burger to place the top bun where the center lines of both the top bun and bottom bun are not aligned. I want them crisscrossed—perpendicular to the center line—so it’s like eating four separate burgers. If I cut it like a pie in four pieces, all four will be different. On burger number two I want—”

“Yo, hold on mister, that’s too much to ask for. We can’t do that.”

I mumble, “Look punk, get your manager. I don’t like your tone.”

“The manager isn’t here, but even if he was he wouldn’t make some crazy order like that.”

“What’s the sodium content of a Big-Mac? And does a Big-Mac have the preservative calcium propionate? I’m allergic to it. If I eat it my thyroid will swell into a rigid goiter and choke me to death. And I’m not in the mood to die today. Please check the ingredient labels or call home office to find out. And check the label on that orange snot-frappé you squirt on there too . . . the secret sauce, whatever the hell that’s supposed to be.”

The cop’s face is broiling red, blood filling every vessel to maximum pressure and I prayed him to die. Die. Die pig die. Die die die drop dead like a beheaded tick picked from the scrotum of a wild boar. As I’m mentally chanting my kill-cop-death-hymn he whips his pistol quick with fleet rapidity grabbing an old woman by the throat with muscular talons and says, “I can taste your stench,” splintering skull with three slugs—brain sausage puked from flesh-melon upholstering the floor in meat-shag. She crumpled as cold arthritic knee caps cracked on checkered tile. Dead. Not what I expected to say the least.

I turn to the young red-head behind me and say, “Hi little school girl, I’m a school boy too.”

The vicious cop unleashed a blood-storm of lead—lifeless bodies shredded into human McNuggets and thickened gun smoke hung dead—demonic flatulence from the rectum of Satan. Frigid fingers tap my shoulder as the manager says, “Reginald, snap out of it. Have you been smoking pot? Your eyes are red.”

I glance in the mirror left of the register and there I stand, a sixteen year old black boy with an Ipod in my back pocket. So I’m confused. Disoriented. Maybe I had a psychizoid embolism. The young woman across the counter says, “Hi little school boy, I’m a school girl too.”

I notice my flesh is white, fingernails glistening lime-green as I lay on my back—naked and legs spread wide. A doctor cloaked in mirrored sunglasses says, “Squeeze Mia . . . squeeze. You’re almost there.”

“Who am I? What the hell is happening to me?”

Nurse Paloma says, “I think the epidural is kicking in. Honey . . . you are Mia Dunwoody. You’re having a baby. Everything’s going to be OK. Just squeeze.”

I see the reflection of my face in the doctor’s glasses . . . a red-headed freckle faced white girl with a pug nose. I glance down as my breasts jiggle, nipples hard and filled with nourishing milk. I will definitely breast feed. Babies on formula usually have frail immune systems. A man’s hairy arm is shat from my vagina, but I feel no pain. Bloody mucous spurts, my back buckles as a man’s head bursts from cloven crevice.”

Nurse Paloma says, “Oh my god! It’s a full grown man.”

He wedges and squirms using muscular hands to pry himself free. It’s Bobby Revell. I have given birth to myself. He twirls icy fingers betwixt my hairless snatch and uproots the vein wreathed placenta, amniotic sac with umbilical cord—biting his virgin teeth into its juice stuffed membrane, suckling fluidic decadence and sliding his naked body atop mine.

I’m so hot, so wet with excitement I explode in passion. He sucks milk chewing my left nipple and slips buckram rod inside me, humping wild and free. We share blackened afterbirth with humid tongue as I fuck myself beneath hot lights.

Satisfaction. Belly full. Dualistic ejaculation. Insane.

Mia, myself and I.

And they say be yourself. Be who you are. There is only one of you so be that. Though I occupy myself, I feel like I just moved in. An inhabitant. Jigsaw personality. Offshoot tendril. Stranger in a skull. Who am I on a Sunday when the wind is stale and bitter consequence pervades my every mood? Who was I ten minutes before when ten thousand angles of reflected theorem was seen by endless dwellers—thriving in my head?

What in God’s name is wrong with everybody else?

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Don’t Let the Bed Bugs Bite

It all started with textured welts, thatches of reddened polyps gathered in fields across my belly—bulbous nodules, rotund knobs—larger nodes surrounded by diminutive nipple like pustules with pus frothing from scabbed gullets. I began having nightmares. It felt like déjà vu. I wanted to leave that old house but momma wouldn’t let me. Her voice bellowed through the halls, her breath vile, a wind of sickness whispering in my left ear and my right dead, packed with wax, my equilibrium distorted and confusion my normalcy.
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Ejakula: Black Mamba Hallucinogen

Warning: This story is extremely horrific, filled with potent sexual situations, dazzling insanity, violence and terror. This tale is what I term Transgressive Erotic Noir falling somewhere in the transgressional fiction genre with elements of extreme horror. This is by far my most sexual story and probably the most ribald. I challenge you to read it to the end. It is my goal here to not only push the envelope but to burn it and snort the ashes. I cannot be bound by the rules of literature and grind its ugly face into blood-burger with my shotgun of insanity. I was inspired by a favorite quote:

“Do not be too timid and squeamish about your reactions. All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Fragments of truth began trickling through my mind seven nights ago; still unclear about everything, memories emerged as heaving matter and voices. Sapphire magma bubbled from triangular furrows along wedged sections of sky, drooping low beneath my feet. I seemed to propel across any density—liquid, solid or gas. I felt composed of plasma, knotted muscle thumping betwixt my skull, echoes in asymmetrical rhythmic groupings composed by intelligence. And I stood on no ground, swimming through copper wind.

The leopard moon in black whipped ochre—fractional rays whirling tentacles across seven planes. Each beam shattered into smaller particles, bent at a thousand right angles, spectroscopic arrays and chiseled kaleidoscopia. A female voice shivered somewhere near, but I was disoriented, unable to distinguish anything. I became encased. Galvanized in sticky dank. The more I struggled the more entangled I became aerial quicksand or gelatinous webbing. I reached to clean the glaze from my eyes but had no face, and the voice just before me, somewhere below.

Seven Days Earlier

The clandestine chemistry lab was well hidden, eleven miles from campus (University of Southern Mississippi)—comprised mostly of old lab equipment: beakers, steam cones, Bunsen burners, analytical scales; an assortment of everything needed—some garbage delegated to a car trunk, some stolen outright from the classroom.

We synthesized LSD (Lysergic Acid Diethylamide) from rosewood seeds but was a nasty high. I never tried the original batch, but Mark Fitzpatrick claimed it made him deathly ill, with weak hallucinogenic properties, saying his vision was chopped into distorted lenses, making him dizzy and nauseous. It wasn’t until three weeks later we got our hands on rye ergot—a necessary precursor—grown by Courtney in botany lab right under Dr. Chadwick’s nose.

LSD Chemical Structure

LSD Chemical Structure

The next batch was the real thing. Pure LSD-25 as determined by spectrophotometric analysis. We had prepared one ounce or 28 grams. LSD is so powerful, over 300,000 doses can be derived from a mere 28 grams while one average dose can fit on the head of a pin.

But that wasn’t enough for Clive, my PhD guerrilla chemistry partner (it was Clive, Courtney and I: the three witch doctors). He was experimenting with new designer drugs. He was so jealous of  Walther Beck, Otto Wolfes and Anton Köllisch—who were primarily responsible for creating MDMA (street name Ecstasy). He wanted to create his own recreational drug, a powerful hallucinogenic stimulant that lasted for days like methamphetamine but with explosive hallucinogenic visuals. He began, because he was twisted in mind-fucked delusion, working with Black Mamba venom. Being the low man on the totem pole, I had to milk the snakes. They were over nine feet long. Had I been bitten, I would’ve been dead in thirty minutes as no black mamba anti-venom is available in the U.S.

Black Mamba

Black Mamba

Clive was a genius and amazingly separated the compounds in mamba venom with relative ease. He artificially synthesized several components after only three days, including calciseptine (the only natural polypeptide shown to be a specific inhibitor of L-type Ca2+ channels). I was only a junior chemist and didn’t understand all the science involved. Clive, somehow had a vision and created specific isomers, along with several chemical subsets using variations of the 60 amino acid peptides. He created three unique chemicals based on both calciseptine (and other venom components) with attributes of LSD, MDMA, THC, chocolate derivatives and amphetamine falling under the drug class of phenethylamines. It was to be a high of intense love. He named the final product Ejakula, a granular powder, shaded ebony-black with crimson luminescence. It was to be ground and snorted like cocaine.

Blistering Love Bad Decisions

We celebrated the discovery. The initial experimentation with lab mice went as planned, but we hadn’t tested Ejakula on humans. Clive had been awake for thirty-one days, twizzle-tweaked on meth. After drinking two bottles of Maker’s Mark Kentucky whiskey, he passed out. Courtney and I stayed up Axing (taking LSD and Ecstasy together) along with snorting copious amounts of cocaine and meth. We smoked several bong hits of hashish and began kissing and fondling each other’s sexual organs; I know, it sounds peculiar to say it that way. She was a skinny little thing, with small tits but I loved sucking them. She was a dexterous kisser, probing every dark corner of my mouth, circling my lips with her nimble tongue and licking the back of my teeth as we drank each other. She was almost ugly, wore geeky glasses and her hair scrunched in a tight bun, but this little lab vixen turned me on like an industrial light switch. We power-fucked for twenty-three minutes, exploding in orgasm, finally licking her shaven twat for an additional twelve. We laid naked on the filthy lab floor, so intoxicated we could barely speak.

We arose and walked nakedly to the fresh mound of Ejakula granules—Clive asleep snoring like dying babies—his body twitching in convulsion but we dared not awaken him. Courtney and I were mesmerized by the sparkling black powder, the way it shimmered red and indigo, speaking out to us to taste it.

“Let’s do some Bobby.”

Standing behind her, I cupped her breasts and nibbled her ear lobes. Still rigid, I slid into moistened vulva, slowly humping as she leaned on the counter. She had the most amazing black widow tattoo on her neck which I repeatedly kissed. I continued fucking her as she cut out two thick lines of Ejakula. She groaned, “Oh please God fuck me, fuck me, fuck me,” her lubricative secretions transuded my inner thighs—hot and moist.

She craftily cut a straw in half as I continued quelling animal itch, slowly in and out and in. She snorted her line and handed me the straw. I angled forth and snorted mine whilst her throbbing tongue wove insanities upon my neck. The drug didn’t burn. It tasted sweet like burnt papaya and trickled down my throat like creamed velvet.

Mind Fucked

Without disconnecting we crawled atop the lab counter copulating in blistering passion. Two gargantuan mirrors reflected our lust as we watched ourselves fuck, she on her knees and I behind unable to envision a time not inside her. Sweet vaginal cleft—sexual musculature kneading my corpulent pikestaff as I ejaculated for three endless minutes—my testicles cramped in pain but stop I could not.

“Stop . . . stop Bobby. I have to catch my breath.”

“I’m trying, hold on,” and de-inserted.

She turned over sitting on her ass, legs spread in my face. Her petite labia quivering and clitoris constricting in spasm. I leaned in fingering her and sucked her throbbing clitoris. She said, “This orgasm is still going, oh my fucking god . . . mmmmm.”

“I know, mine too,” as sexual snot spurted on her belly and thighs—penis choking like a sieve. It must be the Ejakula, this is major shit baby.”

“Lie on your back Bob. I want to suckle your flavor . . . taste your fluid.”

She wrapped her mouth around me slurping every drop, fingernails tickling my scrotum. Four extra breasts morphed from her back as I massaged each wishing I had four hands. Within each blood-red nipple tiny human mouths with chattering pearl teeth snipping my finger. Blood plopped forth in strewn rags, embroidered by demon and draped across her spine. She mounted and rode me like a dragon beast—still orgasming—still in the fires of lust.

Her flesh dyed plum with scattered trichromatic lesions, twisting cyclones agitated across her stomach winding in madness, grinding trenches from crotch to cranium. I crooked my head to see our reflection in the mirror and what I witnessed burned scars across the landscapes of my mind until the day I die. A rabid demon-whore humping my soul—three sectional arms with foot long fingers, each crowned with electrical razor nails. She picked ticks and lice from jungles of writhing hair, splattering waves of vegetative shafts growing in fields across my chest. Her body glistened, cloaked in slime.

A growling hiss vomited from swollen lips, howling psychopathic screams as I stared in the mirror. Eyes spread wide as canyons. And she looked back with dilated pupils stabbed in ivory bulbs—scarlet webs of bloodshot engraved by invisible hands.

We stood in padded white asylum; she a naked woman with my face on her skull and I naked man with hers on mine, becoming freakish versions of ourselves. An exchange. Facial transportation. We gazed in the solitary mirror, kissing our own lips on opposite bodies. Clive stood before us his mouth broadly gapped, a stare of disbelief scribing his face.

He pleaded “What did you do? Please don’t . . . oh God no—”

The Black Mamba slithered from vaginal trench, in her hands as chopping knives twirled from her feet like helicopter blades. Bloodcurdling shrills roared as she dealt venomous mamba fangs, slicing blood squirting bites, writing patterned tales of misery across his soul. Orchestrating death as art. She swam through emerald breeze like serpentine harlot, whirling machetes dicing his body into blood-pudding. Whipped and smooth.

We stood on infinite cliffs overlooking an endless chasm of raven soot, perpetual pool of black hole. Clive stood before her blindfolded with baseball bat in hand asking, “My turn to hit the piñata?”

She lay horizontal in mid air and untied his blindfold. He realized how close to the edge he was as fear crawled his nerves, and Courtney stomp-kicked him. He fell off the edge to his death. Devoured by fire.

The Mall Trip

Headless white doves lay limp on the platinum lake, each sprouting smoke plumes in tinctured prism. The lake folded into itself and swallowed as Courtney and I drove down Highway 49 due south to the mall. I felt completely sober and no idea how I ended up in my car. Both of us stark naked and cool air washing our flesh. She turned up Valley Girl by Frank Zappa and we rocked . . . barf out, gag me with a spoon.

“Are you still high Courtney?”

She lit a joint and the car flooded in exotic flavor, “I don’t know. Maybe it’s like rolling on Ecstasy, you know, waving in and out of stupor until the buzz subsides. Maybe we’re on the down wave and the buzz will be back in a minute.”

“I hope not! We’re naked driving down the interstate at night smoking pot, baked on some unknown chemical substrate named Ejakula. I hope to God this shit doesn’t hit me again.” I whipped into the mall parking lot and stopped. “What am I doing here? Why did we come to the mall?”

I turned to ask Courtney for another toke of weed and her seat was empty. She was gone. What the fuck is happening to me? I was fully clothed in blue jeans, Smoke Columbian t-shirt and wearing dirty sneakers. I got out and approached the mall entrance. It was closed. I saw an old high school buddy walking out to a white van. It was Warren McGee, a long haired stoner I knew since sixth grade.

“Warren! Thank God it’s you.”

“What’s up Bobby?”

“I am fucked up. I took some drugs, my brains are searing right now. I snorted a line of Ejakula, a drug designed by my friend Clive. Just telling someone is a relief.”

I talked to him for a few minutes and decided to drive the ten miles back to campus alone. Courtney was still gone. I blinked and three miles had passed, unable to remember how I drove it. The angled windshield bowed incoming light, twisting my field of vision in distorted segments. Horrendous black tree roaches rained from midnight sky, sheathing my window in cornflower gristle. I reached out the window with a scraper and scoured stagnant ooze as I drove, the streaming headlights of cars trailing like slow camera exposures. For the first time, I was terrified. I thought if I can make it home in one piece I will never get high again.

Re-ignition

Running through dense underbrush, I flashed like scalded wolf, panting and gasping for air, feet churning like grinding wheel—metallic sprig ejested. I stumbled upon a clearing in misted jungle. Chromatic sparks shredded from burning gust; globules of ice-pink shards slung like hairs from tarantula’s back, pricking lacerations in bellies of three albino children. An endless abyss of flatness lay dead before me as I sunk in mind-jelly.

Courtney was shat from bleeding fissure, choked from nothingness and flopped on boiling churn. Her skin simmered as newborn infant burst from cloven twill—umbilical cord glissading and baby crying in hunger, “I want milk mommy . . . wahhhhhhhh . . . feed me mommy.”

“Shut that fucking little mouth. Tell it to shut up bitch!”

Overcome with raging fury, I know not what I do. I snatch the baby up by it’s feet and begin spinning, my arms outstretched, faster and faster, centrifugal force flooding its head blue, struggling for oxygen. Like human whirlpool with baby in hand I lower my stance. One quick swoop and I grind its soft skull—leaving one bloody skid mark on hot street—holding it above, letting its nectar drizzle in my mouth.

Headless baby beautiful. With lovely shoulders.

“His name was Samuel. The most precious gift I’ve ever known. Thank you for killing him.”

I lay beside Courtney, tears gushing and say, “I’m so sorry. I never meant to hurt anyone.”

But she was dead. Blue. Cold. Fire ants in starving hordes fed on her remains.

Clive had blown his own head off. A jagged ravine split his face. Trap-door gullet. And here I am alone. Wishing my life had been different. Wishing this had never been.

I lay in an ocean of time.

Tons of sobs weep as I shiver.

  • Thank you for reading my confession.
  • Soon after, I quit studying chemistry. I tossed twenty-five liters of gasoline on their bodies and struck a match. The embers of death burned for three days. And the stench forever in my mouth. I never fully recovered from this. But I choose to never again live joyless.
  • My friend Warren remembers seeing me at the mall that night. He said I was riding a bicycle though I didn’t own one.
  • None of these incidents were ever mentioned in the media or local papers.
  • No person named Clive has ever worked as a professor at USM campus.
  • I saw Courtney eleven years later eating in McDonald’s with her mother. I asked if she knew who I was and she said no, but I looked like her father. She said her name was Tiffany and just lost her baby to leukemia. His name was Samuel. She said she was seventeen and visiting from Montreal. She had never previously been in Mississippi but had a black widow tattoo on her neck.
  • I’ve tried  fruitlessly to piece my memories together, but to no avail.

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Christian Bale’s Psycho Explosion

I normally never write about entertainment or movie stars, but I am compelled to mention actor Christian Bale’s explosive tirade against the director of photography during filming of his new flick Terminator Salvation. Bale has been one of my favorite actors since his riveting performance as the psychotic yuppie Patrick Bateman in American Psycho–a film based on the book by one of my idols, Bret Easton Ellis.
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