My new friend Miragi asked me some questions about depression. She is the author of several blogs such as Stitch Witch and Read Between My Lines. I was pleasantly surprised and am more than happy to answer. I am an expert on being depressed and over time, have conquered it for the most part; although, I do occasionally fall in the abyss of misery.
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This is my entry in Jamilla’s Share Your Happy Moments With Jamy contest. Please visit Jamilla and say hello; she’s a wonderful person with a big heart!
Happiness has long been elusive for me. I have many happy moments to remember but one recent event in particular really stands out for me. It’s about letting go. What I mean is that by letting go of my expectations of others, I have learned about a fantastic new ability. I tend to get perturbed when people don’t understand or accept my point of view. I think many people experience this.
I thought I understood that it was up to me to be at peace with myself, but I really didn’t understand that. As many of you know, I suffer from depression. I tried anti-depressants and they didn’t help. I now talk to a psychiatrist, some of which is in a group therapy setting. This has helped me more than anything I have ever tried.
Talking to these people has been both powerful and profound. There are people from every walk of life – from doctors to store clerks – all there for one common goal. Just a few weeks ago, I would get irate when thinking about president George Bush. Sometimes it would literally make me angry. When I’d talk to people who disagreed with me, it would burn me up if they didn’t see it my way. Thus, I learned that I had to let go of those negative thoughts.
I don’t mean just ignoring my anger. I mean that I truly released myself from the grips of the root; the place where these thoughts were born. In one group therapy session, I argued with another person about these things. I told them, “If the world thought like me, there would be no war and people would never suffer from greed and many other things.”
My therapist laughed at me and said, “That is the absolute silliest thing I have ever heard. You aren’t even happy. You may have wonderful ideas, but the reality is, you cannot make others think the way you do.!”
We talked for several more minutes and it hit me. We all cracked up laughing and I really learned something. It’s one thing to understand a concept and another to actually employ it. Now, when I start discussing something and that knot starts building in my stomach, I just let go and smile.
It’s happened hundreds of times in the past week. I was able to catch myself! I have never been able to do that before – not to that degree of efficiency. I am not really learning anything new, but a new way to cope. That is the keyword: coping.
In order to experience happiness, we must be able to cope with all that life throws at us. I never once considered that I had poor coping skills in so many areas. It’s amazing to realize the truth. I am on the path to inner peace and no amount of money could compare to that feeling of liberation. I still have much more to learn but I feel certain about my progress.
As I wrote this very post, my blog went off line. I smiled and patiently waited for it to come back up. I realized I lost half of what I had written and I laughed – made a calibrated decision and finished up in my desktop editor to prevent the same occurrence. Because I remained calm, I was able to remember exactly what I wrote and simply retyped it. Now that is unbelievable. That my friends, is happiness.
I hope this post helps somebody out there. I must admit, writing this has been a wonderful experience. Thanks Jamy!
As an American, not only am I politically confused, I am disgusted. There is a massively deep division between democrats and republicans and within the parties themselves. This upcoming election is not “fun” to watch and is not making me feel patriotic. Does it make me unpatriotic or less American to question our leaders intentions?
It’s amazing how different people see politics depending on which state they live in, what country they’re from, education, religion and so forth. Since I’ve “come down” from my prescribed anti-depressants I feel like I said some things in my previous post The New World Order – Zeitgeist which were born of anger. I believe that I allowed emotions to cloud my judgment.
One thing I am certain of is that America is screwed up in so many ways. Classes are becoming more separate, education is at an all time low quality and yet, somehow, I’m supposed to vote for a candidate (and feel good about it). That’s a tall order no matter how you slice it.
In Regard to 9-11
The truth is, I don’t know what to believe. I’ve taken a hard look at the available evidence from both sides, and still – I am absolutely unsure of anything. That is so sad. What a heavy burden for any of us to endure.
While my brain was adjusting to taking no medications, I was swept up in conspiracy theories about 9-11 (that’s enough to drive a person crazy…haha). The very idea that our own government could have had something to do with killing 3000 of it’s own citizens is of monumental concern. Is it true? Is it just conspiracy theory nonsense? Is it partially true? This is the problem, I just don’t know.
If the Bush administration had been much more forthcoming and open in it’s investigation, much of this could have been prevented. All I can say is that these people look so suspicious! It’s enough to drive people mad. I’m mad about it, aren’t you? I do feel much calmer now and that is such a huge relief.
The very thought of not knowing is just as bad as the theories all being true in many respects. Presidential candidate Ron Paul puts the idea of the “New World Order” and “The North American Union” in perspective for me. It’s not really a shadowy group of nefarious people plotting secretly to rule the world, it’s a matter of differing political beliefs. One group believes in globalism, and the other believes in national sovereignty (speaking very broadly).
Here’s a video of Ron Paul explaining the North American Union:
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One World Government?
The idea of a one world government is not a new one. From an idealistic standpoint, it offers many benefits such as having no wars and borderless nations – all of us joining as one people under one rule. This sounds good? I used to think it did until I began educating myself, looking at all sides. Then again, I have no idea what I’m talking about.
With a one world government, there will be one authority with no real way to assure there is no corruption. Corruption will always exist as it is a reflection of humankind’s imperfect laws. Having many countries under separate rule helps keep corruption at a minimum (or does it?).
Of course, I am certainly no expert in any of these areas, and perhaps I should keep my opinions to myself. I will tell you that I am against the idea of war and very much against the death penalty. I don’t want to cause problems to get worse and write things that support the wrong people. I just want world peace…what an idealistic fantasy.
Final Word
I am not turning this into a political blog…haha! Many readers come here, see a political article and are automatically uninterested. Hey, I understand! Politics suck! Most people blog so they can get away from all this, not to read more of it! If you see me write memes and stress free articles coming up, I hope you understand – I need a break. I think I’ll spend the next few days reading and commenting on other blogs, I finally feel up to it.
Today, I will eat an entire box of chocolate doughnuts and wash it down with ice-cold rootbeer (as you know, they are both filled with mind control substances completely designed to destroy my civil liberties).
So I confess, I am like so many of you…politically confused and absolutely fed up with all of it.
